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Wednesday, June 20, 2007, 4:28 PM
sometimes i really don't notice that what im doing is WRONGWRONG in the sense that im not suppose to be doing this at
certain times . NOT COMMITTING CRIMES !
i wanna please Him, i wanna do whatever He wants me
and wishes me to do
but because i love the worldly things so much more than Him
that i even neglected the things that were the best for me to do
i just can't seem to do things that will satisfy Him
people asks, izzit really that difficult to make Him happy?
if u truly love Him, well it's a piece of cake, i would say
but if you don't know Him well, forget abt asking that question
personally, for myself, i don't know Him well enough
cos i don't seek for Him
&& everytime i really reflect myself on this case
i feel depressed, downcast and useless
i know that our Lord is waiting for me to turn back to Him
i'm just like one immature && ungrown-up kidd though
im turning 16 this year
let me be honest, when i started to attend qcmc churchh
i felt that i've gone further n further away from the Lord,
just bcos i dont find clicks there -
i know exactly that going to church is not much abt being wid
ur gd frens having fun, playing around etc
its abt worshipping God with ur fellow spiritual bros&sis
but i also feel that wouldnt it be better
if ur spiritual bros&sis are always there for u in de church
praying for each other and supporting one another when
one is abt to fall, or advising u in times of trouble
there's someone to approach in the church of God?
during worship, i don't sense that i am worshipping
get it? i dont feel that im worshipping even thoughh
i AM worshipping in action
so i wanted to change church so eagerly,
it's just that i didn't wanna let go of my friends in there
my only friends in that churchh
- chenyao, viggy, wenxin, nichh, sam & cadmon
but if this goes on, im really gonna be screwed up
yuling's & nik's church made me feel different
i shed tears of joy for the Lord's presence during worship
it made me feel different, it really did :)))
i have so much questions to ask the Lord
about myself, about family & friends, about Him too !
now i would wanna pray to the Lord,
that He may make me grow to know Him MORE AND MORE
DAY by DAY, AS TIME GOES BY like this
the time left for us is slowly fading away
but just remember,
He will listen to our prayers, no matter how insignificant they are
SMILES! ;DD